How quickly things happen

I have wondered, since finding out that Beezer has cancer, how will I know when the time has come...

Sadly, today, I got that answer. I got up this morning, and fed the dogs as I have every day. Today, Beezer turned his nose up to the food. I went to give him his cheese (which hides his meds) and he looked at me and walked away. I called him back over and set the cheese on the floor, he was so obedient, he ate it... then walked away. My heart sunk as I realised.... He is done.

I called the vet and let him know how things have been the last couple of days and how he has the new lymph nodes and how it is getting tougher for him to get up the stairs. He listened... then told me that only I could make this decision. He did tell me that Beezer could perk up and have a few more good days, but then they would be followed by more bad days and slowly he would fade away. I really don't want to see him go through that. I don't think it is fare to him.

I called and talked to my husband who has agreed to go with me in the morning, as well I called my breeder who cryed with me on the phone. She let me know that she understood and offered some wonderful words of encouragement.

I have now made the appointment. Tonight I will say goodbye to my best friend, the Jack Russell who made me fall in love with the breed. I will miss him dearly, but will be thankful he is no longer suffering.

My hardest part.. I have to tell my kids.